looking for?!? never mind!

And what's with the world now? I changed my digit a couple of months ago to get rid of some annoying text messages and calls from guys (read: guyS! lol) who are brave/weird enough to continually pursue me after what happened. They seem to have a strong radar and 3 of them were able to get my number and here we go again! Ako nanaman daw si "Ms. suplada". Nah ah, they don't look bad, they're all cute and have a stable job (1 is mestizo, 2 chinese-looking all of them have a pointed nose and tall). Funny thing is that, I really find it hard to trust someone again. Besides, I'm super OK and contented with my son. He is the love of my life. If marrying/having a bf would mean having less attention to my kid or if that man won't accept/love my baby, then I'd rather stay single and live happy with Xian.

Loving his lil hands...

For now....

Life is indeed unpredictable- one day, you'll see yourself drowning in happiness then the next day you'll feel like you just wanna stab yourself so that you won't feel the pain. I feel so sorry for what happened between my sis and BIL. Last night, after a week-long silence a letter arrived informing us that my sis' divorce is being processed in Japan. Well, of course all of us felt unhappy. The issue could have been resolved if only the couple had a chance to talk. I hate seeing my family like that. My mom and sister were so affected that they even lose their appetite and they cried almost every hour. =( Sometimes, I can't understand why do we have to go through this sH**. My heart is breaking when my mom burst in tears and told my aunt: "Diyos ko, ano bang nangyari sa mga anak ko, yung panganay disgrasyada. yung bunso bente anyos palang eto separada na." haay, I want to break down but of course, as always I need to show everyone that I am strong. A lot of things are running through my mind now (doubt, sadness, revenge) It's just the start of the year and it's been a roller coaster this early! I do hope that things will get better. I am optimistic that happiness will come our way. I am praying solemnly that soon, all wounds will heal, all sufferings will come to an end and soon only love and kindness will reign our hearts.

To the dad of my kid

What's happening?

It seems that everything is a mess for now. I believe we can surpass this... (deep sigh)

Mommy + Xian Castiel

Early morning thought: I JUST LOVE BEING A MOM! Because he lives, I can face tomorrow. My son is the reason why I am strong. I am addicted to Xian! woohooo! I heart Xian...

1st day of the year

What a day. I am still optimistic that things will get better though we found out that my sister's church wedding won't push through this April due to sukob and some financial issue on my BIL's side. Well, we do respect their decision but I know that my sis isn't happy about it- besides, it's like throwing pennies in a trash- imagine the down payment will be forfeited plus they are subjected to pay extra charges for the cancellation. Everything actually are all set for the wedding but well.... again I felt sorry for the sudden change of plan, I just hope that my mom won't cry because of what happened and that my sister found peace in her heart coz I know, she's been dreaming a big, grand wedding since she's a young girl up to now. whew! Hoping for the best. All the best! Ciao!